I am tired. I am tired of pretending I am okay, I am tired of putting on a smile for every morning that greets me, and most of all, I am tired of telling myself that life couldn't be better. Life is short, and for all that I know, not worth wasting over things that are unpleasant or sad. But what do you do when you do feel sad and you thought there's only so much you could do about it?
I, for one, could not afford to let the world know any better."I" am the smiling face amidst the crowd, the one who tells stories of joy and happiness, of a better tomorrow and of the frog that turned into a Prince....the one who believes that the night can be just as handsome as the day....and the one who believes in the power of believing.
And hence I am afraid, afraid to let the world know I have started doubting my beliefs and dreading the nights. I am scared if I acknowledge I have stopped believing that a better tomorrow exists, there will be one less optimist out there. So today I take leave from the world I know and from the faces I am capable of bringing tears and laughters to...today I take refuge in the world I have yet to get acquainted with...today I join the world of bloggers.
p.s. I dream of the day when I can run off to and lie underneath an apple tree (not necessarily a "green" apple tree though :P) whenever I am down. But for now I shall take solace in the idea of making some new blogger friends here :)
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